Surprising Developments

I cannot believe it, but I am currently losing weight without a lot of effort on my part! What is truly amazing is that I don't think about food all the time. I used to finish a meal or snack and immediately begin thinking about the next food I could and would eat. No kidding; if I was running an errand in the car, I would make sure I had something to eat in my purse and/or in the car. I remember one time in the not very distant past when I could not find a snack pack of peanuts I was sure I had brought with me, and I panicked! I searched everywhere and could not find those peanuts. I finally decided I must have dropped them on the way to the car. And the first thing I did when I got home from my errands was to look for the peanuts. Found them in the car a week later.

That I can go several hours now and not think about food is nothing less than amazing. I don't know how long this will last, but it is a great feeling. Thank you, God, and thank you, fellow bloggers.

This morning, I weighed myself and found I was down. Ordinarily, I would have used that weight loss as cause for celebration, which would have meant I could eat something to "celebrate" my loss. Today, I did not even think about celebrating until I was getting out of the shower and marveling at the weight loss, and then it occurred to me that I had felt nothing but JOY when I saw the number on the scale. No desire to eat, only a desire to lose more. I am so grateful for this feeling. It is so very cool to get excited about losing weight instead of being afraid to feel good about it for fear it will go away tomorrow.

Does that make any sense? My weight has been such an up and down yo-yo for so many months, regardless of what I did or did not do, regardless of what I ate or did not eat. What I know for sure is that I am closely watching my calories now, more than ever before. Maybe my body simply decided to get off its fat butt and start responding to my efforts. I truly do not understand all of this, but I will take it.

I'm dreaming of a slim body.....just like the one I used to know....