Another Day Gone

Interesting day: I woke with an incredible hunger, which is unusual for me these days. I can usually have a cup of coffee or two, a bottle or two of water, before eating. Not today. Had an apple with peanut butter to calm the hungries but still felt like I wanted to eat. Looked for something else to eat.

I did not want to go to the pool today; I wanted to go back to bed. It was cloudy and rainy -- very unusual for the desert -- but at the appointed time, I got ready and headed out. As I left, I told my husband, I am leaving for the pool so I can get it over with and get back. Not my usual attitude.

Interesting how life surprises us, isn't it. There was a lady in the pool that I know by name and have chatted with before but had not seen for several months. She has severe rheumatoid arthritis, and she has had some serious health problems which have kept her away from the pool. Thank you, God, for my health.

Mary and I spent the entire 75 minutes talking, and the time flew by. Here I had been dreading the workout, and it ended up great. Lesson: just do the work consistently. Stick to the plan. Don't make it harder than it is.

While I was exercising, I noticed a very attractive lady walking around. To be honest, I did not even notice her face; instead, I noticed her slimness, how well her clothes fit, how confidently she walked, how she held her head up. And seeing her reinforced for me how badly I want to look like that. I can remember when I was at 144 pounds, and I felt so good emotionally. So confident, so alive. I want that again.

I stayed under 1200 calories today without much effort, which is a bit of a surprise since I was so hungry this morning. After exercising, I came home and drank a can of V8, and that satisfied me for a couple of hours. I ended up having my salad around 4 in the afternoon, and then we had dinner around 7. I was not tempted even a little to take seconds of anything, and I did not nibble when I put the leftovers away. Feels so good to be able to do the program. Thank you, God.

One thing I am doing different this week is that I am staying off the scale. Before, I would weigh myself every morning, and I let the number on the scale dictate my mood. For whatever reason, I tend to go up three pounds, down three pounds, up four, down two, etc., so I was on a constant roller coaster based on what the scale showed. Now I am writing down everything I eat, consciously thinking about what I eat, and faithfully entering the day's food and water into My Fitness Pal. We will see what happens by week's end.